Yes, I know I haven't posted in a LONG TIME. Wait, who am I talking to? No one reads this stupid thing but me!
I've been having some meaningful dreams - I never have meaningful dreams - and I just wanted a space to put them in writing before they are lost forever. Given my current pattern, I may have more to report on tomorrow...
The last 3 nights I have woken up in somewhat of a distress and unable to get back to sleep (despite the fact that I still don’t feel great and am still exhuasted). Monday night I didn’t think much of it, but both Tuesday and last night I realized I had be awakened by my dream, both of which appear to have reocurring themes:
Tuesday night (or Wed morning) I was dreaming that I was trying to drive my truck through a flood and was getting frustrated and panicky about the surrounding waters. But there were also tons of people trying to escape the flood, and they were fighting each other (and me) to get into the bed of my truck. But the more people I had hanging on to the truck and in the bed, the more my truck sank into the water. I was irritated and furious. When I finally made it to solid ground, I looked in the bed of my truck and saw that the people who were in it were badly injured and bloody. But I was so furious that I picked them up and dropped them on the ground without any regard for their well-being (I had a passenger who was helping me, but I don’t know who it was). Just as I was fighting the line between my anger and the ethics of leaving these people on the road to die, I woke up...
Last night (or this morning) I dreamt that I was following a Semi-Truck on the freeway in my old Jeep Wrangler. I was controlling the semi by driving my Jeep – basically it would mimic everything I did and I was in charge of making sure it stayed safe on the road. Before I knew it, my Jeep had accidentally gotten off on an exit while the semi continued down the freeway. I totally panicked. I knew that I was still controlling the semi but now I couldn’t see it. I tried to pull over, but I couldn’t just sit there because I still had to use my Jeep to get back on the freeway and check on the truck. So, I decided I would make a quick U-turn and speed back onto the freeway, thinking that if I did it fast enough I could get to the semi in time. But, once I made the U turn I couldn’t move forward – it was raining really hard and the water on the road was keeping my wheels from moving forward. They were just spinning and spinning...literally spinning my wheels. That’s when I woke up.
Definitely dependency is a theme in both dreams, but why do they involve driving and what’s with the floods/rain?
Is this heavy stuff or what?! :-)
